"When I was a little girl I couldn't wait to grow up so I could......

This is week 3's blog challenge.....

I have been sitting on this for sometime and was not going to answer... but thought I would try and explain my reasons..... My childhood is all pretty much a blank.....and I really did not want to think about it actually. It saddens me when I try to remember things and its like I have no memory of anything..... Things are so limited in what I remember.....
A little while I go I had to try and remember parts of my childhood and when I received the forms and read all the questions I was like OMG..... I became totally overwhelmed with saddness..... what was I going to write..... how can we block so much of our lives out..... It totally sent me for a six and I had nightmares and could not sleep for days.... I would go to bed at night and cry myself to sleep thinking about how unfair everything was and WHY this happened.....the system had failed MY family.
So if I probably did think about this as a little girl... I would probably say ..... I couldn't wait to grow up so I could have a family of my own ..... to have some to love ME and to be loved back.... To give my children everything that I didn't have as a child and MORE...
Thanks for Reading.... this was defintely hard for me to write.... Thanks again Terri for a great challenge :) Its probably things I would not share with anyone but my closest friends....
Have a good day everyone!