Reflecting on the year gone

As the year comes to an end, I decided to take a look at what has happened and how I can improve 2007.....

I have had many family dramas this year but I am still very thankful that I have 3 gorgeous kids even though they don't still all live at home and I have the most wonderful husband who means the world to me. And I know that he loves me and that as every day goes by our love only strengthens.

I did suffer the loss of our unborn baby and even though I try every day to control my feelings about this it is still raw inside. After 3 long years of trying it just felt like our lives would finally be complete and in an instant this is taken away. We can only hope that 2007 will bring us our wishes and bring pure joy to our household.

Charlene has finally become an adult, wow where has the time gone. How do they grow up so quickly and how you forget about the precious times you had with them when they were younger. But she has started a new life with her boyfriend, something that everyone has to do sometime in your life but I just didn't expect to come around so soon. I just wish her all the best and hope she finds her happy feet!

I can only hope that Matthew can find his way back on track and turn his life around. We have done everything to help him but now it is his turn to realise he needs help and seek it. I look at this beautiful photo beside my desk of when he was 2 and just cant believe that he was the most adorable little boy full of laughter and now it is so much sadness, what and how did things go so terribly wrong...

My little boy Jamie is changing and growing every day, I cant believe I have lost my little boy... He will become a teenager in a weeks time, wow I still remember clearly of him being a newborn and needing my every moment and care. Now he is just so independent, this is one thing that takes me back because I thought he would need my help forever...

I have met heaps of new friends and definitely strengthened old friendships, thank you all for a wonderful year full of so many great times and memories that last a life time. I even was able to form new communications with lost friends and so glad we have found each other again. I am blessed to have so many friends that care.... and so lucky to have you in my life and can definitely call you FRIENDS for life..

This year seen me have to quit my job from Darwalla, I was not the biggest fan of the job but I had formed some friendships there and that is the most hardest thing about leaving. But I still communicate with them and this is how I know that they were real friends... I have got a new job just cleaning once a week and love the people that I work for they are definitely the world best bosses!

I have made plenty of new on-line friends since joining Scrapbook City and still have old friendships at OSS. This year I am determined to take my scrapping to another level and maybe put myself back out there and maybe apply to some design teams and start submitting my layouts to mags again. I was loving the idea of not having no commitments to a design team but now that I am not working and life is getting back to normal I will definitely have more time on my hands...

Sadly we did have a terrible lose of a loved one, Aleisha to a terrible car accident and I think about how this affects Lynette and her family all the time. But just remember they are never forgotten just now they are that special angel we will always have in our hearts....

Even though we have to have losses in our life we also have births, and one especially this year that has touched my heart more than others is little BAILEY.. I love his little visits and get so much joy when he is in the house!

I started my blog back in April and wasn't really certain where I wanted it to go, I was more set on making this just something private for me to remember the most important things happening in my life. I kept it a secret for many of months and even deleted posts because I thought my thoughts were too harsh on myself. But when friends were interested in reading it and have left me wonderful comments, it made me realise that my life is important and if people want to share a little part of it I am happy that they come to visit and read a little about my LIFE!

So I could say I have had a good year with some minor set backs but this has made me more determined to make 2007 my year. A year for my family.... So to everyone out there I wish you all the best for 2007 as well and hope you have the perfect year that I am looking for too....